It's been so so long since I've last blogged. Blame it on my lousy laptops. Both broke down at the same time but luckily this computer can still use Firefox. There were so many instances I have so many thoughts inside my head and wanted to blog but when I think of switching on and waiting forever for my laptop to start just puts me off.

First of all, happy birthday Zhising :) Happy 17th. I don't think you'll see this but still here's one for you.

Secondly, I just returned from 4D class dinner. Super glad that there is still around 9 people turning up although the dinner is such a short notice. We still had fun sitting together, eating dinner. Looking back, we were not even this close when we were in the same class. Now that we're in our own paths, different schools, we are still quite on when there is a gathering. This is so much better, no need to send lots of message around the whole class, worrying if anyone will turn up. Haha. Really happy there's such an outing and will be looking forward to another one! Pang, if you see this, please plan another outing okay! :D Maybe after the idiotic and scary Promos. It's a MUST.

Thirdly, I was wondering a few days ago if I should delete this blog since I was not quite interested in updating this thingy anymore. But I've decided to just leave it like that. There are so many memories here that I want to share with others, even though some I want to keep them private. And I was thinking so hardly when are the times I'm really who I am in this blog. Haha. Sounds so emotional but it's true. Since this blog is so not private, when will I be blogging the emotions I am really feeling at that very point of time. But I guess there are really times when I just post what I felt and after blogging, I just feel great. It's like a burden off your shoulder. Like there's an escape for all your frustrations. Like there's a friend over there listening to all your troubles. And that is what I really need now.
I don't know if you will read this. But typing here will make my guilt a little lesser. It's so ironic. I want to let you see this but here I am, hiding this. Hah. I know we still feel awkward towards each other. I'm really sorry for everything that has happened. I also know whatever I say now will not change anything that has turned to reality. I don't know how and I guess I'll will not explain to you what's my rationale for doing so. I don't know how to put my apologies towards you and everything that has happened into words. Everytime when I try, I get tongue-tied. So I guess the best way is to just let nature flow by its course. Maybe time will fade everything. I still want to say so sorry. Sorry for destroying whatever trust you have in me. Sorry for getting you into this situation. So sorry..