P.S. This is a post that will be filled with complaints and it is a super long draggy post so I can procrastinate and not study so soon :)
Confusion. I'm seriously confused. So extremely confused. There's a contradiction in my feelings. I don't know if I should be happy or sad, looking forward or hoping it'll stay as it is, smile or cry? Why?
ALL BECAUSE PROMOS IS ENDING!
Yes, promos is the root of all evil. Promos is the start of all our frustrations. Promos is the thief of our happiness. Promos is the idiotic damn murderer. When everyone is partying, watching youtube videos, playing, singing, laughing, happy till they cry, I'm blogging with guilt. Yes, with guilt. I sound so pathetic, I feel so pathetic, I am pathetic. I hate promos. I hate JC life! I hate the school. I hate the food. What I hate the most is, the PRICE of the food. It is outrageous, ridiculous, unbelievable, etc. I sound exaggerating but I'm not. 'Cause when you think of going to Meridian for 2 years, spending your fortune on the food in Meridian for 2 years, it is reasonable to say so. Last but not least, I'm spending so much money on food that doesn't even worth 3/4 of the price except the Halal store.

Next, the weather. What can I say more about the weather? It is extremely hot. It's so hot till I can perspire just by moving my fingers to type. I can perspire by meditating in front of a fan. I can perspire by drinking a cold packet of green tea. I think I can perspire even under an air-conditioner. At one moment it is this hot, another moment it is that cold. On friday morning, the wind was so big, it blew all the deck chairs into the swimming pool. The wind was so big, it caused Huixian's umbrella to be uprooted and made her look dumb :P The rain was so big, the classroom was so cold and I had to hold my hunger, the cold and finish my Maths paper. I don't think I can understand the weather anymore. I don't think the weather forecasters can predict the weather anymore. I think the weather is having some heavy mood swings.

Last but not least, what makes me feel so irritated and frustrated is because of the contrast between my secondary school life and my JC life. I'm constantly being reminded of the stark reality of having to complete these 2 years of JC. The people I know - they are not bad, they are very nice, honest people. They really care about friends. But the kind of happiness facing them and facing my old friends is different. I know they are caring etc, but the feeling towards them is different. Sometimes when you see your old friends, you just lift your eyebrows, smile a little, you know your friend understands and she is thinking just the way you feel. The kind of mutual interest and dependence on each other I guess is not built up in my JC friends yet. After all, it is 4 years of knowing each other, 4 years of going through pain, hardwork, endurance, scoldings and so.. It is not something you can just gain overnight. And to be able to find a friend after 4 years is through knowing everyone around you. Through knowing everyone, you will understand who is the one that is able to talk to you, share the same views, discuss the same things, complain the same issues. This is not what you can achieve with everyone. That is what I think I cannot get with my JC friends :) Nevertheless, they are still good people.