It is not difficult to forgive someone, it is extremely tough to forget what has happened. Forgive and forget. That may be the most difficult thing someone can do, yet the easiest one can achieve. Forgiving someone for his/her mistake is not a difficult task but regaining the trust you had for him/her is something that is almost unreachable, as if reaching out for heaven. How can you forget something that has impacted you so deeply? Just as much as you find it hard to forget, I find it equally tough to let everything go. It's not as easy as it seems. Talk is cheap. They say "Just open your heart and let everything slide". Nay. How can you let everything slide? As much as your heart wants to let it go, your mind is working in an opposite direction! Making you recall every single detail of the incident. I still can't forgive myself, moreover forgetting it. It is also obvious that you are constantly being reminded of that incident. We smile when we walk past each other, we wave when our eyes meet, we greet each other and say something simple when there is spare time. But of which are we able to smile deeply from our hearts? I question the sincerity in all these actions. Sigh. I miss the times when we were able to talk and joke freely but I doubt it will ever be the same. Not trying to be pessimistic but just trying to be a little more realistic.