It's a Monday night! Monday. Ugh, we all hate that day. Monday is the beginning of all students' horror. Monday kicks the start of five consecutive days of torture. Monday tells me that Tuesday is coming and Tuesday is a terribly long day, with all the tutorials packed in chunks and delivered right up to my doorstep. Not to mention, unwanted tutorials such as double Literature and GP periods, which are awfully boring and information-overloading.

I just ate my dinner at 10pm! :( It makes me feel so guilty. I can picture the building up of tires around my tummy. My tummy already looks so united, how I wish my tummy can be divided into 6. That'll be nice. My dad bought an entire duck from Malaysia. Since there was only 2 of us eating, I had to eat a lot to finish everything up. & I had rice dumplings for dinner too. Both aid in indigestion. Sit back, relax, and get fat. How niceeee :(

My sister totally just freaked me out by mentioning A's to me just now. She said that I will not be able to make it because I've not been studying at home at all. & If I continue doing so, I'll flunk everything. In the long run, I'll just die. Argh, I've been going home late because somehow every single day there's some events or things popping out of the blue, causing me to reach home late. I don't like to live every single day in such a rush. I wonder why I secretly wished that 24 hours could pass by faster when I was in Primary School. 24 hours just don't seem enough now. My life is like on a constant fast forwarding mode. Everything just zoom past and flash by. I don't really get to enjoy that moment or relax and see what is going on. I'm freaked out! Yes, scared! I don't want to end up begging for marks from my teachers. I don't want to put myself in such a position whereby the freedom of choice and the ability to make options are taken away from me. I don't want to end up crying when everyone is jumping for joy. I don't want to feel insecure after taking my papers and not being able to feel glad and satisfied that exams are over. I don't want to end up having to pray for a miracle to happen in order to just pass my papers. I don't want T.T But I'm not doing anything to salvage the situation. I'm like sinking deeper and deeper into this blackhole that sucks in all the slackers in the entire universe. Lol, let me see the LIGHT! Enlighten me, people. I need a wake up call smack right into my face.